Happy Busted Day

July 1st 2000 changed my life in ways I couldn't comprehend all over a sleeping bag. That day was the day I stopped hiding. I had been with Medb for almost 2 years. I had managed to keep my crossdressing under control for more then two years, but I was losing control and pushing her away to keep her protected from myself and what I had felt was a horrible cross to bear.  We were having trouble and she was going up to whistler with her mom and the kids,. I had taken the time to dress trying to relive the pent up frustration I was having not being able to express myself. I had taken the day off early gone home and unpacked a hidden box of clothes i had kept for the past two years. I was reading something in the computer room when I heard someone trying to open the door to the house. I had taken precautions and locked the door out of fear of being found out. Didn't matter we lived in the country. When I looked out I saw her car and the banging was getting louder. I bolted for the upstairs bedroom where I had gotten dressed as she started to get into the house.

The sound of heels on tile alerted as she entered the house she came to the same room where I was the door locked my body weight pushed against it. She hit it so hard she broke the door frame and I just managed to get out of what ever I was wearing and into my pants and top. My heart was racing like a jack rabbit, she stormed past me looking thru the room and out the window. Then thru the house and it gave me a few moment to try and remove the deep stain of lipstick. At that moment I knew it was all over, those few  moments i tried to carve out of my life and just feel normal had done me in. It was only a matter of time, before she had figured it out, so what did I do ? I  tried to cover it up acting as there was nothing wrong.
She swore there was another woman but there wasn't one. We went out to get her gas and the sleeping bag and I was trying to act macho and say no love I'll get it because I'm your boyfriend right.

We came back to the house to drop me off and were talking when she touched my cheek and looked at me deeply and asked said you know that shade doesn't suit you. I told her everything and she listened unfortunately she had to get back but would call me later..... That was the start of my second birthday, my female one lol and It went on till 2008 each year Medb would make it special and we would celebrate my day of freedom. I've grown a lot over the last decade and walked paths and experienced things no one should but I wouldn't change it for the world. That day started me down a road that led to being able to just be. To be truthful to myself and allow me to open up and share with others. In return I've been blessed with my best friend in the world and I cherish her so much. I've met a ton of new folks and I've just been allowed to be instead of a few hours here and there.

I don't need busted day anymore, but I will always enjoy it and cherish the day.

Till next post

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