Ok... to start with I wish she hadn't been ill at all during the trip to Montreal. however she was and something good did come out of it. When I got out of surgery she was right there to make sure I was ok. A look of worry and love in her eyes that few will ever see. How do you measure up to a woman who for the last few years has been my rock. My coach and cheer leader and stood beside me as my friend, my lover and my Fiancee.... she even recommitted in Montreal with a new dolphin ring I found that matched her bracelet. Thru the hospital and the first few days she was there.
Shortly after I got back to the residence she started having a cold, and for the safety of the others and myself stayed away for 3 or 4 days so we wouldn't catch it. This all happened as I had my package and mould removed and started after care.. I knew had Medb been there she would have helped out and fussed over me. Giving me a few days to learn the routine and ease me into it. This time it was just me.... I had to deal with some issues about looking at myself and touching myself that I struggle with and in the end it made me stronger.
I can hardly believe its almost been two weeks since I started this road and I'm getting better at it.... going to be proud of myself today. Got up started.... finished and went out for grocery's, got a temp phone number... thank you Glentel for shutting off my Demo line when I needed it most and picked up some supplies.
I am getting stronger every day, and I feel alive but unsure about this all. Do I regret it at all nope not one bit. Am I freaked out yet.... but one things starting to come back and that is a pattern... Medbs cold hit her a bit so I get to take care of her :)
Be Well
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