I find myself late at night waiting to do my last dilation of the day. It's not because they hurt because so far they haven't. I find my self having to work up the courage to do them and I don't know why. One girl here has a very valid reason she associates the dilatation with an old memory that causes her to regress and relive something traumatic from her past.
I just have a mental problem and a physical problem touching myself, and I need to suck it up somehow. Find a way to not look like it's a chore. Only I have the way to control this and make it different. Overall this week I've over come a lot. dealing with blood and changes to my body. Battling hot flashes hormones,a son I want to smack and making a change for the positive.
good or bad its what you make it .... and its only 20 min really just clean up after and just relax it into you.
Good Night all
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