Grown up Talk

There always comes a time when your children seem to go from one extream to another.  Then there are times when your children grow up and you hear the words .... I really screwed up and I need to grow up. On my grand daughters second birthday I got to have a good talk with my youngest. His tone has changed for the better and seems to have grown up a lot faster then I believed he would. In my case I didn't have much to do with it, that belongs to life it self as it really is a hard bitch.

I have hope from him that in his future he will be more successful due to the harsh lessons he has learned. I also got a chance to to hear how I had helped him in the past by freaking out on him when I found out he tried to self cut himself. I never realized that I had done it at the time. I give him the credit as he is the one with the internal strength to overcome it.

He is raising a beautiful little girl and I hope he will continue his self improvement over the coming years. I think he will and I know if he can get his education he will go anywhere in life he chose's to do. He did make a statement that he is looking forward to moving to the coast here to find work or education. I really hope it does, it will allow me to be closer to him and his girlfriend and my grand daughter. Maybe I can help guide him a little but I think the most important is I can get to know the man he is becoming and become closer to him then I was raising him.

The last few weeks have been so busy but to give you a preview, we bought a house, I got a wookie and we are shopping for furniture... yay no more storage locker :).

Till next post

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What I did on my Summer Vacation

The weight of the back pack hangs on my shoulder as I walk to the bookstore on campus. Strange how it sounds coming from me, 40 years old and I'm getting ready to enter university in the winter. I reflect back on  the past few months on all I accomplished on my summer vacation. I learned a few things about myself and took Ferris Buellers advise, I stopped and looked around a lot and found out how much I've missed in life, and going forwards I'm not going to go back to the way I was, I"m going to go into another transition lol So what did I do all summer ...... They are in no particular order

1) I relaxed and played some games on the computer lol ....Gotham City Impostors and later Guild Wars 2

2)I spent a lot of time with the love my life waking up next to her and just enjoyed her calming energy.

3)I went back to Alberta and fought with the government to change my gender marker

4)I read more and prepared for admittance and placement exams for university

5)I went to Vegas and for the first time in my live I got drunk

6)I hung out with some friends and enjoyed there friendship

7)I layed out the ground work for a start of a new buisness

8)I watched a lot of movies

9)I found the strength inside myself to become a better person

10) I signed up for some personal developmental classes

11)I vowed to conquer my fear of my own sexuality

12) I learned to relax and have fun

13)I celebrated my 14th anniversary with Medb

Tomorrow I again will hit the books and try to conquer math but I will do it with a smile and be grateful that I'm happy with who I am becoming. Allowing this girl to live life and make it what she wants it to be.... I love transitions.

Till my next post 

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